A date had been set. This evening was going to happen. We were all going to meet again after twenty three years. I marked it on the calendar having made the decision to go.
A mixed pot of emotions bubbled within me the closer it came to the date. I longed to see them all again but feelings of anxiety were settling in & the oh so familiar inner voice of self sabotage was in full swing. I was thinking of all the reasons I shouldn't go. Thankfully the desire of wanting to see them all again was much stronger than my self defeatist thinking.
A glass of red shared in the company of beautiful friends, took the edge off my nerves, warming me & calming me a little, from within. We arrived and were greeted by a sea of friendly faces. They were the same easily recognizable faces from my past, they'd not changed much at all, they had matured gracefully, like the glass of red I had consumed before with my friends. They , just like the red, made me feel warm within & the residual anxiety within dissipated , leaving me feeling relaxed. So very happy to be there, experiencing this wonderful moment. There were kisses & embraces as we met and I was emotionally moved but managed to fight off the tears. I am such a sentimental old fool!
There was an easy camaraderie between us all. We seemed to fall into some kind of a familiar groove that had been left open from many years ago. We settled into an evening of affectionate bantering, laughter & wonderful conversation. It was fantastic, it was comfortable & it was safe. I didn't want it to end.
I am so glad of this night, so happy that I went & feel so fortunate to have had a past filled with such beautiful friends.
I do hope that this is the first of many more get togethers. I loved it & I loved being with them!
A glass of red shared in the company of beautiful friends, took the edge off my nerves, warming me & calming me a little, from within. We arrived and were greeted by a sea of friendly faces. They were the same easily recognizable faces from my past, they'd not changed much at all, they had matured gracefully, like the glass of red I had consumed before with my friends. They , just like the red, made me feel warm within & the residual anxiety within dissipated , leaving me feeling relaxed. So very happy to be there, experiencing this wonderful moment. There were kisses & embraces as we met and I was emotionally moved but managed to fight off the tears. I am such a sentimental old fool!
There was an easy camaraderie between us all. We seemed to fall into some kind of a familiar groove that had been left open from many years ago. We settled into an evening of affectionate bantering, laughter & wonderful conversation. It was fantastic, it was comfortable & it was safe. I didn't want it to end.
I am so glad of this night, so happy that I went & feel so fortunate to have had a past filled with such beautiful friends.
I do hope that this is the first of many more get togethers. I loved it & I loved being with them!
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