Escapism!

Escapism....is what I needed today!

This morning I decided to take my brood for breakfast at IKEA. Besides the fact that we were out of breakfast type foods at home, it seemed like a better way to start the day & also gave me the morning out of the kitchen. No dishes to wash & that is always cause for small celebration.

I had awoken from slumber abruptly & this left me feeling quite flat in mood, saddened by the rude awakening I had just experienced. The youngest of my children had awoken in tears. Heart wrenching, sad, sad tears. He had a nightmare about his great grandmother which found him weeping uncrontrollably at my bedside.

I held him in my arms & told him it was just a bad dream. After a long cuddle & some comforting words, I encouraged him to do something that would distract him from these sorrow filled thoughts.

A quick stop home after our IKEA breakfast, still found me in a sombre state of mind. I felt the need to escape. Where to, I didn't know, I just wanted to get out. Get out from behind these four walls & go!
An invitation for my sons to join me was accepted. I let them know that I didn't know where I was going, just that I needed to go. I needed to get out.

We found ourselves on the meandering roads leading up to Tamborine Mountain. This beautiful place was just the medicine I needed to ground myself & bring myself back from the blues. It seems when I am with nature a thought switch is flicked on. I ponder over things, wonder about things, remember events & think forward in my mind. It is hard to remain negative in a place of such serene beauty. Somehow I gain clarity from just being there, taking in the view & breathing in the pure air.

I realised whilst in this thoughtfilled state, looking out at the picturesque view that my sons nightmare was also my most dreaded fear. With the events of the last few weeks, my grandmother has been foremost in my mind. His nightmare whilst in sleep was my nightmare in the waking hours.

I reassured myself just as I did with my son that she is OK right now. And for now that is all that matters. Now!