Glossophobia

It is funny how a lot of us desire to be like someone else. We see in others qualities, gifts or special abilities that we wish for ourselves. Thoughts of : I wish I was thin like her, I wish I had skin like that, I wish I could wear beautiful dresses like that, wouldn't it be great if I had an imagination to write like that.

I am not sure what it is about the human condition that makes us feel jealousy. What it is that makes us want what others have.

I would be lying if I were to say that thoughts of envy have never permeated my mind. For me though my envious thoughts are centered around other peoples abilities in areas where I have a terrible weakness.

I would love to be more confident & be able to speak in front of a crowd of people without feeling like the bottom is falling out of my world. I would love to rid my life of Glossophobia ... the fear of public speaking. I have had several opportunities come my way which involved an element of public speaking & I was swift to find excuses as to why I couldn't do it!

My heart was yelling out , "Yes I would love to do that, go on & do it" but my stupid head was saying "No, you can't do that".

So it leaves me with the question of why I am like that. What happened to me that created or fed this fear?

I envy people that can stand proud, think clearly & speak with confidence in a crowd of people.

So the thoughts that come to me when I observe this in others are, "I wish I could be more like that".