Missing You Judy!

Judy it has been 5 years since you went away my friend! I think of you often but I'm sure you already know that. I wonder how things might have been for you had this terrible thing not happened! I miss you & I still feel an anger within about losing you this way.

You know I am the age you were when you left and the knowledge of this is frightening. You were way, way too young.

I remember your smile & your gusto for life

I remember your love of holidays, get togethers & celebrating life.

I remember celebrating your 40th birthday & how privileged I felt to be part of your life.

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I remember your love of children & your devotion to family

I remember how you took another womans children under your wings & loved them like they were your own through good time and bad

I remember how welcoming you were to everyone ... everyone felt a feeling a acceptance in your presence

I remember your nurturing & caring spirit

I remember how we laughed together till we almost peed our pants

I remember your yearning to bare children and your emotional journey to achieve that

I remember your excitment & fears when realising your desires had finally come true & you were finally pregnant with twins

I remember you sharing your fears with me & I thank you for the trust you showed me.

I remember your struggle & I wished that there was something that I could have done to help you feel better ... I hope you know how much I cared

I remember your home & how beautiful you made it ... so homely & welcoming...just like you! The door always open ..

I remember your compassion for others

And the respect you showed to everyone, never saying a malicious word or acting poorly towards another ... you were absolutley beautiful inside & out

Yes I remember you as one of the best people I have ever known!

I remember your funeral & all the people that gathered to celebrate your life. You touched so many people in so many different ways and you will never, ever be forgotten

I remember the bravery you showed in the darkest hours of your life & how you chose your babies life over your own... attempting to give them every possible chance at survival. You are a wonderful mother Judy and I will never forget this act of love.

I remember seeing you resting peacefully with your little cherubs across your breast, right where they belong, next to your warm & loving heart... They are very blessed to have you as their mother and they, like you, will never be alone.

As I think of you now...I am sending you kisses, hugs & lots of love... to you and your babies!

Love you Judy

Your friend always

Katherine xxx